I just wrote a HUGE post on why I have been absent. Absent from blogging. Absent from my friends. Absent from my own life. Although some of it was explaining the deep abyss in which I have been residng for the past few months, it also shared something which I will get to later. The post explained of all the challenges I face everyday and really how insignificant my troubles are right now. How cathartic it was to write it all down. Some of you may know that I suffer from depression. I used to be able to hide it well. So well in fact that my own family didn't know. It's been getting harder and harder to fight. So what do I do? I cut myself off from everyone. All the people I care about, all my friends. For that I am sorry. Deeply sorry.
It also shared some information on a friend of mine, who unknowingly has pulled me up into the sunshine.
As much as I want to share her life with you, it is extremely sad. This wonderful lady has put my life into perspective. Of all the difficulties she is facing in her life right now, and believe me there are many, she still smiles. She is slowly getting back to her life and she is one of the strongest women I know. I am so proud and honoured to call her my friend.
Today is a new day and I have stopped being afraid and made that Dr appointment I should have done years ago. I have gotten off my bum and started cleaning the house. I have opened up the curtains to let the sun shine in.
I hope there is sunshine in your life where you are today :)
Karlene xx
Kars, you are such a beautiful person & I'm sorry for your pain :)
Posted by: Marguerite | July 06, 2010 at 01:24 PM
Karlene, Glad to hear you're starting to feel a bit happier. Hope you had a fab 40th. Sorry I couldn't be there. If you feel like catching up for a coffee call me any time. You inspired me to purchase some diamond dust. Should get it this week... can't wait to have a play!! Your LO's look fabulous.
Cheers:)Cathy
Posted by: Cathy Cafun | July 06, 2010 at 04:53 PM